I'm back!

It's been awhile and I've been floundering.  I've been gaining and losing the same 5 lbs. since January.  But here I am, back at it again and this time it is going to stick.  I've made some real changes in my attitude and made a few action plans that I think are going to make this doable.

The bottom line is: I want this more than anything.  I want to be healthy.  I'm scared I will gain back all that I've already lost.  I don't want to slide backwards.  I'm a happier person when I'm on track.

Here's what I've done: I went back to meetings, I set non-weight goals (i.e. goals regarding my own behaviors), and I've made a plan and I'm sticking to it. 

I have 4 weeks until I go on vacation and I want to set myself up with some success before going to the beach.  This way I won't be derailed...or just use vacation as an excuse to continue to engage in poor eating habits.

Here's my plan.  For every week (Friday-Thursday) that I:

A. Track every Bight Lick and Taste (BLT's) and stay within points (including AP's and WP's)
2.  Get at least 20 min. of structured activity in (except for 1 rest day)
D. Meet all of the Good Health Guidlines (GHG's)

I earn some type of reward.  This week it's a new nail polish and unless I go overboard tonight (which I won't) I've earned it!  My theory is this, all of the criteria that I have set for myself in order to earn the rewards is within my control.  The problem with setting weight-related goals is that the scale does not always reflect the effort that you've put in...for whatever reason.  Regardless of whether or not the scale moves in the direction I want it to, at least I will know that I have earned a reward based on my own behavior.  And due to the science behind the WW PointsPlus plan if I meet all of these criteria, I will lose eventually.

I'm not getting any younger (I'll be 30 in less than a year) and I don't want to be obsese for the rest of my life.  So here we go, this is the beginning of this phase of this journey that I've been on for 11 years.  I'm going to record it all here, the good, the bad, and the ugly.  I can't say that I'm not giving up this time, because I've never really given up, but I am sticking it out this time because I know that the benefits I reap will be ten-fold.

Jami